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Wednesday, 09 January 2008

Well, tomorrow is the first day of the last semester of my undergraduate schooling. I can't believe it's here already. It seems like it was just a year ago that I was a senior in high school. I know everyone says that... but it's true. I've been thinking a lot lately about how much things have changed... Four years ago I was in love, completely miserable, and totally uncertain about my future. Currently, I'm a bit jaded toward the whole love thing (I admit it), I'm a little miserable (but things are looking up!) and I'm still totally uncertain about my future.

I guess some things never change.

I'm teaching the music to K-6 students at First Presbyterian for 10 weeks this semester. All the planning I've been doing for it (reaching back into all those foggy Bible camp memories in an effort to come up with some fun songs to teach them) has gotten me thinking about my favorite Veggie Tales song. Some of the lyrics go like this:

"Coz' he loves his Cheeseburger with all his heart,
And there ain't nothing gonna tear you two-oo apart,
And if the world suddenly ran out of cheese,
He would get down on his hands and knees,
To see if someone accidently dropped some cheese in the dirt,
Then he would wash it up for you,
Wipe it up for you,
Clean that dirty cheese up just for YOU!!!!!!

You are his cheese-bur-GER..."

It might be silly, but thinking of myself as a cheeseburger belonging to Jesus makes me smile and feel loved all at the same time. It's good to know that someone loves me that much... just in case the world ran out of cheese.

Thursday, 18 October 2007

Ever have one of those days where you could SWEAR that the radio just has it out for you?

Seriously?!

Today's been one of those days. It's been a long week... and it's almost over... but I can't stop and relax because next week is yet another CRAZY week...

... and so, OF COURSE, the only people on my mind are my two former best friends... neither of which speak to me anymore.

I don't have time to be thinking about them, and yet, all I could think about this afternoon was them. So, I turn on my radio to try to distract myself and songs like "Walk Away" by Paula DeAnda start playing.

And then there's this song:

I just can't seem to win today...

Tuesday, 16 October 2007

Okay... umm... I haven't posted on this thing since March. That's a LONG time ago. Oh well!

I guess the only reason I'm on here right now is because I'm exhausted, but I can't sleep. I have a test tomorrow, a test Wednesday, two labs I haven't even started (one of which will take me 6-8 hours to do) due on Thursday, a 9-11 page rough draft due on Monday, and a lab exam next Tuesday. Yeah... it's a little intense right now and I'm not really sure what to do. I've been trying to eat right and to work out to keep my endorphins going and to keep from depressed, but it's not going very well at the moment. I've been eating way more than I should have, which is a habit I've worked very hard to overcome, but apparently I haven't rid myself of that monster yet. Maybe it would help if I quit one of my three jobs. Unfortunately, that's not a possibility though with my current financial situation. Plus, my trip to Europe in the spring isn't helping things any. I don't want to have to ask for the money, but that might be where I end up. Who knows. At least this is my last year of school before I take a year off. Then I can apply to grad school and start all this craziness all over again. Grrr... the things we do in the name of providing ourselves and our posterity with a future.

I know that at the end of the day, even if I fail a test I'm still a good person and my life will still go on. Besides, McDonalds is always hiring and I'm a smart enough cookie I could probably make manager before too long! Lol!

On a more positive note, I'm retaking Organic Chemistry this fall and it's going much better this year. It's even actually kind of making sense! Yay! Progress, not perfection, Kayli. Progress, NOT perfection....

Yeah... I'll just keep telling myself that.

Well, I should probably get to bed. The next couple days are big days. Wish me luck.

Friday, 09 March 2007

I can't exactly put into words what I'm feeling right now... so I'll let my old friend, Emily Dickinson, do it for me.

"HEART, we will forget him!

  You and I, to-night!

You may forget the warmth he gave,

  I will forget the light.

When you have done, pray tell me,

That I my thoughts may dim;

Haste! lest while you’re lagging,

  I may remember him!"

Good bye. You know who you are.

Wednesday, 31 January 2007

Wow. I really don't have time to do this... but my xanga definitely needed a little love.

Let's see. It's week #4 of classes and so far I'm enjoying them all. MUCH BETTER THAN LAST SEMESTER!!

I also have a part-time job now. I'm working in the shoe department at JCPenney which has been both good and bad for my pocketbook. Lol. I'm finding cute shoes as fast as I'm selling them. Okay... I've actually been really good about buying impractical things. So far the only money I've spent has been on clothes and shoes for work... except I did buy myself a bottle of nail polish... just cause I liked it... Oh well. I guess you have to let yourself live a LITTLE at least. Lol!!

My Reward for working so hard: YAY!! (Okay... that's definitely my girlie side coming out isn't it... Oh well!)